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Wednesday, 04 March 2009

  • MeAsUrMeNtS... And weight-blegh

    I recently joined curves because i am at my highest weight and i know its coz im a binger... However, due to the fact that i was bulimic for 3 years, the skinnier me is hidden under all this fat... So im sharing these things here, so everyone else can see what a whale i am... CW-76.7 Kgs GW-60 Kgs (for the moment, i know i can lose more though..) Bust - 105 cm Waist - 84 cm Abdomen - 96 cm Hips - 111 cm Thighs - 66 cm Arms - 33 CURRENT BODX EAT- 33.4%... 1/3 of me is fat-thats fucking embaressing and completely disgusting! the big question is, what am i going to do about it? when i figure it out, i will let you know.,til then... Peace.Love.Skinny

Friday, 02 January 2009

  • HaPpY nEw YeAr...

    AND what a happy year 2009 SHOULD be...
    Heres to hoping...

    UHM, update since my last post...
    1) I did book my drivers, im doing it on July 8th (i know its a LONNNNG time to wait!!)
    2) i got my results on tuesday and passed everything (3 B's, 2 C's, 1 D and an E-which btw doesnt mean a fail...hehe) 
    3) i have been having funn :P so yay finally!

    i still have to get my resolutions in order but when i do i will post them up here...oh and im halfway through the room organising and i still need to get a day planner...

    ANYWAY...uhm i dont really have much else to say-my love life is embaressing-ly love-less at the moment...my social life a bit slow... OH and ive decided to do a short year long business course to take up my time this year...so travelling is out but i have my whole life ahead of me so maybe i'll do some travelling next year or the year after that...i'll have to see...

    ciao
    xoxoxox

     

Saturday, 27 December 2008

  • Its nearly a new year...

    Wow...2008 is like over.. And i pretty much accomplished nothing..cept MAYBE passing high school. I've been doing a lot of thinking about my future and i really dont have much going for me at the moment. Loads of my friends are starting college and university next year and im gap-yearing. Cept i dont know what to do during it. I want to travel a bit but i have a feeling that i failed science and am going to have to rewrite in march. Which is really shit...so i can only travel after march. And i need to work out where im going and everthing. I dont feel ready to be making decisions about my life coz what if i make the wrong 1 and fuck up everything?i really need some guidence or help. But im over having my parents helping with anything. I need to get away from here. ANYWAY, things to do week: 1)Book my drivers [Hey a little freedom is better than nothing] 2) get my results 3)Organise my room 4) get a dayplanner diary-thing. 5)Have funn [ coz im working too damn hard]. Im off, love lolz xox

Monday, 15 December 2008

  • im fucking failure...

    YOU KNOW....

    i went away for a week...i let guys use me...and the 1 i fall for now thinks im a slut... and he is so awesome and sweet and gorgeous. but he'll never go for me... because im fat and useless and i fail at everything because i never try to begin with :(

    im so over being this way. i want to be the best i can be so that i can get guys like this guy :(...

    will update soon...

    <3 fatty

Sunday, 12 October 2008

  • New Plan....again (whats new??)

    SO, i weigh 73kgs :( and summer is motoring its way closer and closer and i thought, fuck this, i really need to do something because im sick of being fat and i wanna look good on the beach in december... so, i have a planwhich i REALLLLLLLLLLLY need to stick too because i always fuck up but i have goals i want to reach....

    EATING PLAN:
    Br: 1 Yoghurt (58 cals)
    Sn: 4 Rice Cakes (89 cals)
    Sn: 1 Apple (50 cals)
    Lu: 2 Slices Bread (173 cals)
         1/2 Tin Tuna (49 cals) / 2 egg whits (60 cals)
           Tomato ( 10 cals)
          Cucumber (10 cals)

    TOTAL: 440 calories for breakfast, lunch and 2 snacks

    Su: k, supper is kinda a coin toss because i'll eat something different every night so here are the calorie values for like the main part of dinner and then i'll add some steamed vegetables to it or something:
     Snichzel-233 cals; Hotdog sausage- 113; Oven chips-126 cals; Steam fish-77 cals; Soup-107; Pasta-162 (120g cooked); Corn-90 (for 100g)

    SO, as you can see, everyday i'll eat under 800 cals which is a lot and stuff because usually when im restricting cals, i restrict to 500 a day but im really worried about my body at the moment and am trying to take care of it-ya know??

    OKAY, then i have restictions on what im allowed and what im not allowed:

    Yes foods: Fruits (most), veg (most), steamed fish, tuna, brown rice, weetbix, water, ice, egg whites
    Limit foods: Milk, yoghurt, popcorn, tea, cheese, gum, bread, rice cakes, alcohol*
    No foods: White rice, egg yolk,cream,ice-cream,juice,crisps, chocolate, biscuits, cake, brownies, desserts of any kind, carbonated drinks, fried food, coffee, dried fruit, nuts& seeds, grapes, avocardo,sweets, butter, oil, mayonaise

    EXERCISE:(like everyday)
    Walk- 40 minutes
    Situps
    Pushups
    Swats
    Lunges
    Skipping/ Starjumps/ Stairs
    Pelvic lifts
    Stretching because i want to look toned :)

    MEDICATION:
    SO, today i spent loads of money on a whole bunch of diet pill type stuff...
    Herbex Slimmers- 15 drops in water 15 mins before i eat
    Vital Fat Burner- 1 tablet a day
    Senelax- laxitive but im not going to use it unless i need to, im trying to have enough fibre so that i wont need them AND the herbex stuff has a mild laxitive and diuretic function so i may not need this in the end.
    Nivea Good-Bye Cellulite Cream- apply once daily to areas affected
    Nivea Firming Shower Gel- (kay, i already have this in my shower) it massages and stimulates to make your body firmer( or so it says....)
    Tissue Oil-( i have this too...) which is to reduce stretch marks and all the very many scars i have accumulated in my lifetime....

    so motivate me people-hahahahhah
    nah, i can do this, i know i fucking can!!!!
    i want to maintain the weight loss (you know, not gain it back) so even though im crash dieting for summer in the end gradual weight loss will be okayy i think....

    gtg...
    love: lolz
    xx

    AiMiNg FoR pErFeCtIoN...

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